i have failed so many times to become the person
the person that i long to be.
perfection, the standard of my everything.
unable to realize i bring my fall.
perfection, a task not possible.
i try so hard, not hard enough.
my God, lived without sin.
myself, I’m indulged in it.
my god how long i will sing this song.
and my god how long til i come home?
my god ill sing until i have no breath.
and my god come and take me home.
blood stained hands carry my sins.
my hands carry no such wounds.
your eyes have searched for me.
i look away. i look away.
i have failed to be the person i strive to be.
i fall so short to the expectations.
you wore the crown of thorns, as i wear the crown of shame.
your eternal sacrifice
has torn a whole inside my heart.
i fail to sin, not for the last time.
i will rise back up, and carry on.
my flaw of the man i shouldn't be.
is not the man you died to see.
so ill learn to be who i should be.
and give back to you, and give less to me.