Hope starved

I had hope and love that swallowed everything Now that same hope fucking mocks me All the good in me scattered carelessly I vie with myself, trying to push through this hell Hammer the nail, embrace the pain Forget this face and name Fuck taking the next best thing, I want what’s worst for me Put the gun to my head Barely alive in a world incorrigible that remains too weak to hang With the part of me that you forever changed