Fixed on defeat

I?m still searching to find the enemy. These battles keep my eyelids open, they keep fixed on defeat. Still through the games I continue to play, I shut out the words they say. ?Wake up, learn to love this life.? A dream?s so hard to hold with no end in sight. Swallow harder. Try to digest the pain. It boils over. Now we?re one in the same. Can?t close my eyes when it hurts to see, try to focus on ?in front of me.? Trust not all I see. We ignore the plights that plague our cities. And embrace a world that spins in our heads. You know nothing but self pity. I?ve felt the black and blue and now I see red.