Blowing Out Every Light Sparkling Off My Heart

So here I am dying lost in a world I can't comprehend. The genealogy of my wounds is too easy to read but I know I can fucking heal. Scared and bruised - broken but free The bastard son won't come back home So here I am choking with regrets stuffed in my throat I have to swallow the blades on which I've always slept This was the only (and lonely) way to freedom Scared and bruised - broken but free The bastard son won't come back home So I'm walking on the cutting edge of a rusted world. Now I know what pain is my feet bleed the sickest blood But I feel secure and I smile because I know it's the last and only sacrifice (I hit rock bottom but no one hears my bones breaking) They told me that I'm free and they wrote it everywhere but I know I'm not I can feel it in my guts I'm so sick of being sick, so fucked up of being fucked up I've got to find a way to get out of this shit - show me a way to get out of this shit So I walk alone not knowing where I go, not knowing where I'll fall For the first time I feel beautiful "outside the dawn is breaking but inside in the dark I'm aching to be free" Crossing every gap Burning every map I swear to never come back Blowing out every light Sparkling off my own heart Fuck you I'll never come back