Climbing And Climbing

to spite those futile cries and all those hollowed sounds i've got to dig deep through the dirt to stand on stable ground obstacles made of stone it's not my choice to be alone but it's all i've ever known memories spin in my head of all the chances i might have blown in this catacomb my sins must be atoned i'm drowning before you a bottomless pit of blame it's my own creation how can i win this cruel game i reach for my salvation another brick of grief is laid i'm climbing and climbing the light no closer than yesterday i burned all the images and i swore i'd never go back tucked deep in my mind just a ghost of the past one that won't hide for long in the shadows of the wronged all it's mercy it is gone i just live for them to forgive struggling to stay strong as i wait for my dawn the haunting's prolonged i wish i could tell you what i wish i had said in your head you might have misread but it doesn't matter now because to you i am dead can't you see how i bled i'm reaching out to you i'm reaching out for your help i can't fight it alone save me from myself but you won't even try close your eyes and say goodbye.