To Tell You The Truth

"just don't wanna lie" she said, and our lines crossed i feel the same if i feel anything "to make myself feel better", "to get the upper hand" and staring at my ceiling "that's the hand that would hold me back" and tonight i'll stay awake and within myself, tonight i won't close my eyes for anything, to anything i'll try and try to get the things i can't get right break every mirror 'til i can't help but sing "doing is the best way of saying" and would i rather take the hits full-on grow stronger, thicker skin? instead of living my every day about to collapse within i'd rather live my every day with the will to truly understand, what it takes, to admit my mistakes tested, true, not to bend, will not break sometimes when i'm about to break or broken the things i fear the most need to be spoken so i'll shout, shout them out, let it get out, get it all out when the future's always a sleepless night away i'll take it day by day we hung up then but i feel resolved, i'm breaking out of this i can't let myself down by living lies, rather stand for something than live for nothing real stand for truth to myself than ignore the things i know i feel