Dilated

insomnia too exhausted to be awake too full of life to sleep full of questions about the horror which tomorrow brings about the love I wont let myself feel turning and rolling, tremble and cough I can't stay still but moving keeps me awake craving the sedation that only sleep can bring searching for a fix I can't find my eyes shut tight thinking the darkness can caress me into sleep it is never dark enough I hold my breathe hoping for the release that only being unconscious can bring but I never have the strength hours of anguish, lead to a second of bliss which will leave me in a world that has only pain for me tear my eyes out every time they open I awake in a more painful reality