Reiteration

I'm so ashamed to be that man. To reinforce convention. I'm so afraid to be that man. To reiterate that human mistake. That identity is based on the goal that being a man means playing a role where what I am is measured by who I control. I know of no other way than to play this power game. I know of no other way than to dominate and subordinate. I am so ashamed to reinforce convention. Must I shut off emotion in the name of identity? I wear the mask of the masculine. My face has grown to fit this facade. To refuse this unequal relation is to have no role; no identity. Power over the powerless. This image is thin, transparent yet unpenetrated. Integrate passivity. Validate dominion as identity. That unquestioned path. That relentless shutting down of emotion unresolved. That power structure: one above another, of lesser and greater, where compassion is weakness. Assimilate this script as fact. How long can this go unquestioned? How long can this go unchallenged? Can I relate outside of these roles? Every action is a choice. Every relation can be undominated. To go against these roles is to go against all I've known. I cannot do this on my own. Every action is a choice. How long can this go unchallenged? To go against these roles is to go against all I've known. I cannot do this on my own. To go against these roles is to go against all I've known. I can't do this on my own. From the booklet: What does it mean to be a man?In politics,religion,business,family and human relations,the role of the male is to be dominant.If you refuse this role,are you any less of a man?