Teach me how to learn

Pushing 24, feeling as fucked up as in past written notes. Getting sick of getting old... as fucking lost as I was years before. Where the fuck is gonna leave me this shipwrecked life? I yell against the world, I yell against it all to find someone by my side. I damn every girl that never gave a chance to my shot down heart. I scream against the dreams, against the walls I'm trying to break down crying out fucking loud... Beauty lips hide poisoned tongues that beg you to keep on breathing. With needles through my throat I let you hear impotence howling. I sold my heart (and I swear the price was really low) the same day that I lifted up my hope above the clouds. But that day turned to a dark blue night and never again I saw the fucking light. It's the never ending story of never learning... I'm the one who sends S.O.S. letters (and this postman won't ring twice, gonna do it more times). This is the way to calm down my fight. This is the only way I know to calm down my fight. Where the fuck is gonna drop me this shipwrecked life?