Pain

The meaning my life is all but gone. I have been betrayed by my own. A roller coaster ride of emotions pounding through the chambers of my heart. Exploiting me like an open book. As I speak I can feel a tormenting pain within myself. Creating an unnerving disorder. Controlling me body and soul until I am none. I fear the end. Growing stronger every second increasing every day. There's no way of knowing how much more I can take. Will there be a solution to this pain that I feel. Wake up motherfucker cause you know the deal. Wake up motherfucker cause you know the deal. Visions of anger emanate from my mind. Thoughts of the past our making me blind. There's a light burns right before my eyes. I'll never know if all of these lies. Will come back o haunt me in the end. Here I thought that you were a friend. Someone special within my heart. You've taken my soul you've torn it apart. I can't seem to resist the power that you possess over me. It's rippin and diggin draining me of my sanity. Feel for me I'm in pain. Open your eyes stand tall you can do this on your own. Open your eyes open your eyes to this. @#%!. Times of need you weren't there for me. Fallen to the edge of my sanity. A train ride headed to no destination. Living a life filled with procrastination. Time ran out the end had come. Regrettably so it had to be done. Living for you was all that I had. Scars on my brain I'll never be the same. Again! Depression breaks through like a juggernaut. Take a look inside and watch me rot. A lifeless shell that's about to break. Just wanna see how much I can how much I can take. How much I can take.