Ruined

What do you do when everything's against you? What do you do when you have burned every bridge? I can only blame so much on everyone else. I deserve everything that's happened to me. The past can't change,i need to let it be,i need this all to end,where can i go? I'll put myself into a bad situation because i don't care what happens anymore,I'm fucking done. Everyday i try to fix mistakes I've made and i will do that on my own,on my own. I'm screaming at the top of my lungs. I don't need your fucking help,i'll fix these problems on my own. Good things were put in front of me,I was to fucking blind to see. Twenty years of existence,Never felt alive for any of it. This how my story ends,I accept the fact i'll die alone,in this world I've grown to hate,never took a chance,now its to late.