Sink

What do I have to lose having lost so much that matters all that I've loved for so long is now gone what if I have more to lose haven't I suffered enough is it too soon or am I just holding on if death is in the wind then let it blow my life away why didn't I try to change when I saw it coming all along I knew it was the end long before it had ended in the silence of my mind can I find something to replace my pain now I sink in desperation learning to deal with the pain I won't cry no more I won't give myself that satisfaction I know those feelings may someday rise again until then I'll be waiting for tragedy's end.