isn't that just a fancy word for feeling 'bummed out'?

by wearethekids.· from Ep

it feels like i've been lost for so long. my body's been wandering, left my head all alone. lately i've only been lighting duds. been burning the branch that could get me out of this mud. but now i see the truth to things. this life is just a let-down. yeah it's been a long ten months and i don't know how i'm coming back from this one. time helped fix things but i need a real cure. these pilled helped to numb my toes to my head. hearts beat hard or they don't at all. why can't i just find a way up?