Extinguish

i'm going to begin to burn down this house that we built together. i will ignite each room, one by one. my heart will not feed my flames..what led you to this betrayal of my feelings? you want to be so strong and hold to your selfish convictions, what about our commitment? how can i fill this gray spot in my heart? i thank you, though i'm frightened because i'm sinking deeper..you've locked the door to my seclusion..my own cell..i hate everything, everyone, including myself...my heart will not feed my flames that i've ignited to erase..how can i fill this gray spot, in my heart? no clean break, no clean slate, just a dusty chalk board.