The Pain Principle

You don't understand me you most likely never will don't even understand myself everyday I can't wait for the end everynight I destroy myself I beat myself because I hate myself I abuse myself because I like it torture what was given to me a screwed up way of life from which I'll never be free I gotta hold down gotta get it right self inflicted pain I just gotta go through it a razor in my grasp I'll cut right through my vein the next best thing is a bullet in my brain scar my body and scar my thoughts I'll show you how much self worth I have you either laugh or cry at the things I do you don't realize that I'll do them to you I look at this life and piss in its face it did no good for me I can't decide if I want to die or live life bloodthirsty you don't understand me most likely never will don't even understand myself everyday I wait for the end every night I destroy myself I'm confined to this body and locked in this mind the blame I hand to all of mankind when will this torturous game ever end if it gets worse suicide I will befriend in the meantime I see the worlds grime somethings gotta be done and done right now I seek pain to forget about my life I seek pain to escape myself