Cursed With Awareness
by Off Balance· from Demo
Wherever I go, wherever I may be / These voices in my head will never leave me / To be alone I detest, yet company I despise / Manipulative evil in everyone's eyes / When I turn my back, I'm the object of ridicule / BATTER THOSE OPPOSED, before I'm played for the fool / Focus on what's wrong, hysteria takes ahold / Latches onto my psyche and takes control / I've searched for salvation, but I think I might quit / Disenchanted with what I've found, I can't deal with it / Paranoia comes and goes, coupled with anxiety / Thoughts race out of control - can't handle sobriety / So I'll drown myself in booze and a smoke-filled haze / Comprehend purpose and all my past days / Regret clouds my mind like a cancer / All I see is red when I'm searching for answers / Negativity corrodes, steadfast faith erodes / Crippling my spirit, leaving me for a loss / Panic attack, consumed by flack / My life is destitute, my mind is distraught / Boiling with dissent, contempt for my surroundings / Gasping for air, I feel like I'm drowning / Searching for the light, the truth and the way / In tomorrow, I've lost hope for today / WRECK IT! / CURSED WITH AWARENESS - this sentence of life / CURSED WITH AWARENESS - agony and strife / CURSED WITH AWARENESS - tear through their mask of sanity / CURSED WITH AWARENESS - out of touch with humanity / Struggle not to revert to the self that I hated / Delusions broken down, incapacitated / Testing and trying, my patience wears thin / If I fall I'll get back up and fight til the end / Destroy the inner demons that stole my self-worth / Now I'm
STRONGER THAN BEFORE, undaunted I
push forth